Well...the week is not over. So I'm not a complete failure yet. But, so far, I have failed to eat breakfast entirely, and I didn't take a walk today. I think it might be simpler if I set my goal as "Following my schedule" but you know what? That seems too impossible. So I am going to re-define some things; instead of the meal cooking thing, my new goal is going to be waking up at 7:30. I will do it because I can!

In other news, got into a political fight over facebook. Yes, the guy was being entirely ignorant, and the girl who sprang to his defense was as well, but I probably should have just left it alone. Perhaps I need to get back on some forums to get my aggression out. I've been trying to avoid politics entirely, but I don't think I can keep that up.

Finally...something's been bugging me a little bit. My friend recently said, "You should just move here and go to school with me." And I wanted to do it. I really, really wanted to do it. I can't, first of all because I can't hold a job because of my illness, secondly because I'm moving in with my brother soon, and third...I've got a boyfriend. I never thought I'd let that be a factor in my education, but I realized that I'm only looking at schools in places that he would go to school. Is that wrong? My inner-feminist is rebelling. It's not just that "Oh a man is controlling me" (because he isn't at all; he doesn't really know any of this), it's that a small part of me is saying, there are no guarantees in life. What if we break up? What if he dies? Do I want to be in Texas, with no support system? I know a lot of this traces back to the divorce. It wasn't a good marriage and it's not a fun divorce (note to self: invent fun divorces; you will make a lot of money). I'm still a little scared that I feel this serious. I know, absolutely, that I want to marry this man, and that scares me. I think I'm a little crazy, cold, cruel, empty corner of the internet. Thankfully, no one reads this blog! So why post it? I have no idea. I'm an attention-ho somewhere deep inside I guess. Despite my fears, and my occasional irrational annoyance that he has never bought me flowers, he's wonderful and I'm lucky that we're both so in love with eachother. It's built on a solid foundation of friendship and that is as awesome as it gets.


To Do This Week:

1. Clean my room entirely <- Done!
2. Get my Anthropology project and homework done
3. Finalize my English portfolio
4. Eat breakfast and take a walk each day
5. Wake up at 7:30 am. No really, wake up.